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Part VI : Tratak Meditation
In the night we will have a third meditation, a group meditation.
You have to stare at me - it is a tratak. I will be standing here;
you have to stare at me without blinking. The eyes will get tired,
tears will start rolling down - let them. Go on staring at me
so that I can meet you, you can meet me. Just by talking meeting
cannot take place. I talk only to persuade you into something
else which cannot be given through talk. So talk is just a seduction
for something else, for something else which cannot be communicated
through words.
That's why this meditation is the last in the night. The whole
day I prepare you. I prepare you to go more and more mad, so by
the time night comes you are already insane and you can do something
which the mind would not have allowed you to do - stare at me
with nonblinking eyes. Why nonblinking eyes? When you blink, mind
changes. You may not be aware that your blinking depends on the
mind. When you are really interested in something blinking stops.
That's why your eyes get tired in a film.
Watching a film, the film is not destructive to the eyes, but
your eyes stop blinking. You are so interested you forget blinking.
You go on staring, that's why your eyes get tired. And staring
at a film is dangerous because you are staring at something which
belongs to the lowest of the centers. So if you go to see a movie,
if at all you go, continuously blink. Be less concerned with seeing
and more concerned with blinking, so you are not hypnotized and
the film cannot provoke your lowest center. All films are hitting
at the sex center, that's their appeal.
In this third method in the night, you have to stare at me.
I want to hit at your sahasrar, the peak, the last, the highest
center. Unblinking will be needed as it is needed for the lowest
center. Unblinking you look at me: the mind stops. Then a flow
starts; then you and I are not two, a bridge is there. I can move
in you, you can move in me - a deep communion is possible.
You will be standing while doing this, and you have to go on
jumping with your hands raised so that you forget the feeling
of the body and you become energy - jumping, moving, dynamic.
As you are, your body has become static. With static energy communication
is not possible; only with a moving energy, a jumping energy,
is contact possible. When energy is static it becomes like ice
- dead, frozen. When energy is moving the ice melts, it becomes
a river, flowing. And if you go on moving, a moment comes when
your energy is not even like water; it becomes like vapor - invisible,
rising upwards.
Remember, ice is static, cannot move; water is moving, dynamic,
but can only move downwards; vapor is invisible, moving, but can
only move upwards. These are the three states of your energy also.
Every energy can have three states: the solid, the liquid, the
vaporous.
You have to go on jumping with raised hands so you become a
movement. Everybody will be jumping, and soon static energies
will mingle with each other, they will become a dance. And you
will be constantly, simultaneously, using the mantra hoo, so you
are hitting your energy deep. Your energy starts moving upwards;
your body has become flexible, liquid, vaporous, jumping, a dance;
and constantly your eyes are static towards me, staring towards
me, fixed towards me, and I can work on your highest center.
The whole situation is created: your energy moving, hoo constantly
hitting at the source - the lowest source of energy - forcing
it to move upwards, you jumping, your eyes staring, mind in a
stop, and me constantly working on your sahasrar.
I will be moving my hands just to give you hints. When I move
my hands like this you have to go completely mad and become dynamic;
just a dance, the dancer is lost. And sometimes, as I move my
hands upwards, you have to bring more and more energy to movement.
You don't know how much energy you have got; you are holding it.
Don't be a miser, allow it. Let it flow, let your totality come
into it.
Then there will be some moments when I will put my palms downwards.
When I put my palms downwards that shows that now you are in such
a vaporous state that a contact can be made. Now I can come to
you, now I can touch your sahasrar. So when I put my palms downwards
you have to bring all energy, whatsoever there is, to become the
dance, the jump, the hoo. Bring your total energy in that moment,
because in that moment a contact is possible, a shaktipat is possible.
And you will feel…if you really move with me you will
feel the lotus in the head flowering. You will feel the silence
that comes through it, the bliss that comes through it. You will
feel the perfume that happens within through its flowering. Once
this flower starts flowering you can never be the same again.
Now you are on the path, now nothing can stop you. Now you can
move alone, no master is needed.
A master is needed only up to that point when your budlike sahasrar
opens. Once the master has helped you to open it, once the petals
have started opening, you can be alone. Now no one is needed,
now you have gone beyond all possibilities of falling. You can
rise and only rise now, there is no possibility of any fall. You
have come to the point which is called by Buddha the point of
no return. Only up to that point is a master needed.
These will be the meditations that we will follow. I thought it
would be good if I told you about everything so there would be
no need again to talk about them. vedant01
Eyes are your doors for going out. Through eyes you are moving,
through eyes the desire, through eyes the illusion, through eyes
the projection - through eyes moves the whole world. But the innermost
cannot be approached through the eyes. You will have to become
blind. Not that you have to throw away your eyes but that your
eyes must become vacant, objectless, without dreams. Your eyes
must become empty - empty of things, empty of pictures, empty
of reflections.
If you can look into the eyes of an enlightened one, you will
see they are totally different. A buddha looks at you and still
he is not looking at you. You do not become a part of his eyes.
His look is vacant. Sometimes you may get scared because you will
feel that he is indifferent to you. He is looking at you so vacantly,
not paying any attention to you.
Really, he cannot pay any attention to you. The attention is
lost now; he has only awareness. He cannot be attentive to anything
exclusively because that exclusiveness is created by desire. He
looks at you as if not looking. You never become a part of his
eyes. If you can become a part of his eyes, then you will become
a part of his mind - because eyes are just the door for the mind;
they go on collecting the outer world into the inner. Eyes must
become blind. Only then can you see your self. doctrn04
Surrendering to a master* is a minor surrender, but you begin
to feel it because the master begins to flow into you immediately.
If you surrender to a master, suddenly you feel his energy flowing
into you. If you cannot feel energy flowing into you, then know
well you have not surrendered even in a minor way….
Even in a minor surrender with a master, energy begins to flow.
Suddenly, immediately, you become a vehicle of a great force.
There are thousands and thousands of stories…just by a touch,
just by a look, someone became enlightened. They do not appear
rational to us. How is this possible? This is possible! Even a
look from the master into your eyes will change your total being,
but it can change only if your eyes are just vacant, valleylike.
If you can absorb the look of the master, immediately you will
be different.
So these are minor surrenders that happen before you surrender
totally. And these minor surrenders prepare you for the total
surrender. Once you have known that through surrender you receive
something unknown, unbelievable, unexpected, never even dreamed
of, then you are ready for a major surrender. And that is the
work of the master - to help you in minor surrenders so that you
can gather courage for a major surrender, for a total surrender.
vbt02
*Note: a banner over the podium announces: "I have come
not to teach but to awaken. Surrender, and I will transform you.
This is my promise" this concept is developed later, see
Part VII.
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