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Part VII : Darshan: Osho checks energy
Often when sannyasins come with a problem, Osho 'checks their
energy'. He may use a small torch to pin-point or focus energy.
Sometimes there is a dramatic response in the person's body. Osho
also asks other sannyasins present to sit with the person checked.
A sannyasin says: I was really looking forward to coming to
darshan tonight and then just sitting here…opposite you
and facing you, just made me want to…cry (beginning to sob).
Yes, I know! You can cry. I love people crying! It is good.
Crying is beautiful. Don't take it amiss. It is beautiful…it
is as beautiful as laughter.
And I can see that it is not because of any misery that you want
to cry. In fact you are surprised at your capacity to be happy.
So you want to cry, that's all. Those tears are perfectly….
You cannot believe. It is too good to be true. That's why it is
happening. It is so much that you cannot say it in any other way
so it comes out in tears. It is an overflowing heart…. dance15
Ordinarily we say that we breathe, and that's not true—life
breathes us. But we go on thinking ourselves as doers, and that
creates the trouble….
Just sit and close your eyes. Raise your hands and allow your
energy to go wild.
The sannyasin sits in front of Osho as instructed. For a minute
or two she is quite still, then a trembling of energy spreads
through her body and steadily builds up to become an almost violent,
thrashing movement. Her body jerks and trembles while grunts and
groans are heard. The movement rises to a peak, and then falls
away to a long slow 'aaahhh'…
Good, come back, come back in control.
Mm this way you have to allow, and then much will be possible.
Energy is coming up and somehow you are controlling it. And this
is the centre from where the control starts. Below it is the unconscious
mind; above it, the conscious mind. This is the centre just in
the middle, so a little control is possible there.
Drop the control and then suddenly the energy will have an upsurge,
a breakthrough. It will penetrate like a sharp knife, and may
even be painful the first time it penetrates you.
But then everything becomes so beautiful. Life is so tremendously
beautiful. One has only to allow, and it is there just waiting
for you, just for the asking. wobble08
What about you? Something to say?
Maria sits, silent, gazing into Osho's face.
Then close your eyes and raise both your hands, and let energy
flow. Feel me flowing in you, and if the body starts swaying and
trembling, allow it, cooperate with it.
Maria sits quite still and then very slowly her arms begin to
rise, palms upturned, her mouth dropping open slightly. Slowly
her hands move in front of her, arms extended, in a gesture of
supplication, of receptivity.
Osho shines a small pencil torch on her face and torso, and then
sits, eyes closed, gently waving the torch backwards and forwards
for several moments…
Good, Maria, come back. Everything is going well.
You have said it—and to say it through energy is a better
way to say it. If you can be possessed by my energy and you can
let go and can sway, you can convey more deeply that which cannot
be conveyed by any verbal communication, because verbal communication
is very superficial communication. All that is significant can
only be conveyed through energy communication.
Two lovers hold each other's hands and something is communicated.
Or two lovers kiss each other, and something is communicated,
or they embrace and something is communicated. When you allow
yourself to be possessed by my energy, something in the deepest
core of your being starts conveying, because those movements are
not coming from your mind. It is a code. Those movements are coming
from the very source of your being.
Whenever you feel that you have something to say and you cannot
find how to say it, say it through energy. You can dance, you
can sing, you can just sit and allow things to happen. And all
of my sannyasins by and by have to learn how to communicate through
non-verbal energy, because by and by you will start feeling that
it is more difficult to say anything, and you still want to say
something. You have something to convey, but you don't know how
to put it into words, how to tackle it through language; you cannot
figure it out. So you want to say something and you don't find
the right words to say it. Language is not adequate. It is a good
indication that something deeper than the mind is happening.
That which can be said simply shows that it is happening only
in the mind; you have still not crossed the boundary of the mind,
still the heart has not been touched. When the heart is touched,
one feels almost incapable of saying anything. And there are even
deeper layers than the heart.
When the being is penetrated, one is simply at a loss. There is
no way. One is simply dumb. That's what's happening to you. Good…be
happy about it. Be happily dumb (a chuckle). Good. dance08
A sannyasin sits without talking in front of Osho, and then with
his encouragement, begins to allow her body to move spontaenously,
sitting upright at first with her eyes closed, she suddenly falls
into a bowing position, her head at Osho's feet. She slowly rolls
over into a foetal posture, and then lies outstretched on her
stomach, groaning, for some moments. She then rolls back again
so that she lies at Osho's feet, on her back, her hand to her
mouth…
Your energy is flowing very well….
Something very significant is close by. If your energy starts
moving in the right rhythm….It is only a question of rhythm.
If you can vibrate in the right rhythm, you will be able to touch
it. It is always a question of vibrancy.
Existence is vibrating in a certain rhythm. If we can also vibrate
in the same rhythm, there is a meeting immediately, a fusion,
melting. We go on missing because we don't know what rhythm is
and how to vibrate in the same rhythm. So close your eyes and
start vibrating. You need not worry about what to do. Simply let
go. By and by you will see a certain pattern, a certain field
of energy arising around you. Do it for ten days every night and
every day it will become more and more clear. And some day, something
will happen…. passio10
A sannyasin says: I was aware of a tension in my third eye, and
when I breathed into it—into the third eye—it was
burning. Then I had a catharsis. I went inside and the rest of
my body was relaxed.
Very good. Come here. Just look into my hand and if something
starts happening in the body, allow it.
She sits close to Osho's chair and, as instructed, begins to gaze
steadily at Osho's outstretched hand.
Almost immediately she begins to tremble, her torso and arms quivering
gently at first and then more strongly. Finally the energy seems
to take possession of her, flinging her to the ground, face downwards.
After a few moments, Osho calls her back. She sits up, hair strewn
wildly across her face and laughs for a moment in surprise at
what has happened…
Really good. It is something very beautiful and meaningful so
don't get scared about it. Allow it to happen. The energy is reaching
the third eye centre. When it reaches there, many manifestations
happen in the body and you will feel almost as if it is burning.
Sometimes the spot will be actually burned. There is an old woman
here—she actually got the whole spot burned.
When the energy is too much and too intense—it is electricity,
body electricity—it can burn easily. But don't be worried;
its being there is a great step towards growth. By and by your
third eye will be able to absorb it, then the burning sensation
will disappear. Suddenly, one day you will feel an almost ice-cool
spot there: then the energy has settled. That ice-cool spot continues
and that keeps you cool in any sort of circumstances. Somebody
insults you—you remain cool. You fail in something—you
remain cool. Then nothing can distract you once that third eye
centre becomes cool.
But it can become cool only when the energy moves there, works
there, and settles there. In the beginning it will be really hot
and fiery. The whole body will be relaxed—that's the beauty
of it. Deep down inside you will feel relaxed. Nothing is happening
there, everything is happening in the third eye.
I can see that everything is going well. In the Tao group it will
happen many more times. Allow it. If you become too afraid, remember
me and leave it to me. Now I will do—your work is done!
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I am here; look into me, feel me, try to imbibe my spirit in
you, let my flame come closer to you. Any moment there can be
a jump—my flame can jump and light your unlit candle. Just
come close, come close…and when I say come close I mean
be more and more in love. Love is the only closeness there is;
love is the only intimacy there is. It is not a question of physical
closeness, it is a question of inner intimacy. Be open to me,
as I am open to you; be available to me, as I am available to
you. Don't be afraid, you have nothing to lose…except your
chains. art10
Later, a journalist asks Osho: I visited the ashram in Poona
and often heard the word 'energy'. Please explain what energy
is?
There are things which can only be experienced and cannot be
explained. For example, electricity is energy, but nobody has
seen electricity in its purity, as energy. You have seen it in
a lamp, as light; you have seen it moving a machine, a train;
you have seen many manifestations of its work, but nobody has
yet been able to see what it is that works….
And the same is true about the word 'energy'. You may have heard
my sannyasins continuously talking about it, and naturally you
must have thought at least 'Thomas Alva Edison' knows the answer.
But I don't know! I can only say how it works….
Energy is our basic constituent. Its expressions may be different:
it may express as love, it may express as laughter, it may express
as silence. When sannyasins talk about energy they are talking
about a special implication, implementation, of this energy.
They are all meditating, and meditation certainly gives the
energy a new dimension. It immediately starts moving around the
person, and if many persons are meditating it becomes an energy
field. Those who are open can just enter into the group and, they
will be surprised, just as you touch an open wire of electricity
and it gives you a shock, in an energy field if you are open you
can feel it immediately engulfing you, overpowering you. This
makes many people afraid of coming to the communes, coming to
the sannyasins—they think it is something like mesmerism
or hypnotism. It is neither hypnotism nor mesmerism, it is simply
that so many people have pooled their energy in their silence
that when you enter into the group you cannot remain unaffected
by it.
That's why I said, "It can be experienced but it cannot
be explained." And all these communes that I have been creating
around the world are just for that single purpose. Anybody who
wants what this energy is can be a guest in a commune for seven
days, mix with the commune for seven days, and feel it. You will
know what it is, but you will not be able to tell anybody else
what it is.
The ultimate always is beyond explanation. But it is not beyond
experience. last514
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