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Part VII : Darshan: About Problems
Whatsoever I say is only a suggestion. It is not a prescription
and you are not to follow it, because then I become the authority
and I start forcing my ideas of happiness on you, and it goes
on and on and on. These are just my suggestions. If you feel—and
you have to feel—do them. Do them because you feel they
are right, not because I have said them….
If you cannot decide, consult the I Ching! wobble22
Whenever you come across something in my words which is going
against your experience in any way, immediately come and check
it, because I am saying so many things to so many people and each
person is so different….
So whenever something goes against your grain, then immediately
check. If something is going with your grain and everything is
flowing, there is no need to check; then it is for you. But the
ultimate criterion is your experience. bite11
Many people, particularly Indians, write to me asking why I
am not giving a certain discipline to my sannyasins. I cannot—I
am not their enemy. I am not in any way here to dominate anybody,
I am not here to dictate. I can help you to understand, then it
is up to you. Out of your understanding if something happens in
your life, good, but if it happens because I have said it then
it is ugly. Then sooner or later you will repent, then sooner
or later you will take revenge on me.
I am your friend. I can help you to be more alert; that's my
whole function. And then whatsoever is good follows so silently,
just like your shadow. It makes no noise and it does not give
any ego to you. As you become more aware, all ego disappears.
You become more and more humble, more and more simple, more and
more ordinary. And that ordinariness is divine, that simplicity
is sacred. But discipline has to arise in you. I can commune with
you my understanding, I can share with you my experience, that's
all; then it is for you to decide what to do and what not to do.
My sannyasins have to learn how to live in freedom. I know it
is very difficult for you too—even my sannyasins ask: "If
you give us definite rules it will be easier for us to follow
them." I know it will be easier because that's what you have
been doing your whole life. Somebody has been giving you orders
and you have been following; that has become your habit. You would
like me also to be a father figure, just to tell you that this
has to be done and this has not to be done. That makes things
cheap and simple you need not bother, you can simply depend on
me. But that creates dependence and you lose something immensely
valuable: you lose your freedom, you lose your independence, you
lose your individuality, you lose yourself. And that is not my
purpose here.
My purpose here is to make you more and more unique individuals,
more and more authentic individuals. I would like you to take
the responsibility of your life upon your own shoulders totally
so that you become completely free of all kinds of father figures.
That brings great blessing and great benediction. ggate102
A sannyas says: I'm taking heroin lately…and feeling negative.
So if you want to feel negative, take it. It is destructive. You
have some suicidal tendency deep down. These things are not going
to help, and by and by you will lose control of your being.
The sannyasin replies: I wish I would lose control.
Then it is okay and nothing is to be lost. If you want to be
destructive, it is your responsibility. If you are enjoying it,
it is your responsibility. One is absolutely responsible for oneself,
so whatsoever you are doing, you are doing to yourself. If you
feel good, it is good. If you feel bad, then come out of it.
But take a decision to go in or to come out of it. Don't just
drift in—because drifting is easy; coming out will be difficult.
It is very easy to get into any sort of wrong trip but once you
are in it, the body becomes accustomed to it and then it is very
difficult. Just a decision won't do. You want to come out but
the body will pull you in.
So, looking at all the consequences, one has to decide. And
of course the decision is finally yours. I have nothing to say
about it, because I never enforce my decision on anybody. At the
most I can give you some humble advice—that you are playing
with your life and nothing can be got out of it. It is a slow
suicide. But if you like slow suicide, then it's okay.
I'm not condemning you. I'm not saying that you are committing
a sin or anything. I'm simply saying to do it knowingly, because
coming back will not be easy. You can go in very easily because
it is slow and there is no effort needed. It is downhill. Even
if your car has no gas in it, it can go. But when you want to
come out of it, then the uphill task. If you don't have any power,
you are stuck in the valley of darkness, in depression. Then knowing
nothing, people go on moving downwards because at least moving
downhill they have a feeling that they are going somewhere.
But all growth is uphill. All growth needs conscious effort.
And all-growth is responsibility. But this is just my advice.
If you go downhill, you go downhill. You decide about it, mm?
roseis07
Many people come to me because of illnesses. They have tried
doctors, physicians, this and that "pathy"; they have
tried many things and nothing happens. Then they come, then they
talk about God. And I can see they are not interested in God at
all; they are ill, physically, mentally, and they are in search
of a miracle, some miracle medicine. They are talking about meditation,
they are talking about God, they are even ready to take sannyas,
but their search is wrong. They should not be near me, they should
go to a physician, because they are not even aware of the spiritual
urge in them. It is something physical, or something mental—which
is the same, because your mind and body are not two things. They
are two poles of the same phenomenon.
And even if you are cured, nothing is cured in you. Even if
you have a healthy body it makes no difference to your inner growth.
Maybe, as you are health may not prove a blessing. It may even
prove a curse to you….
If you are here for something worldly you are near a wrong person,
because I am not going to do any miracle, because that is the
way to attract wrong people. I am not going to heal you. I am
not going to do anything for any wrong reason. justlt02
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