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Part VII : POONA 1974-1981 Osho goes into Seclusion
On 21st March 1974, exactly 21 years after enlightenment, Osho
moves to Koregaon Park, Poona, where two residences in adjoining
properties of six acres have been purchased. Osho is in seclusion,
and for a month he is sick. He holds interviews on the lawn, only
with sannyasins arriving or leaving; he gives a few individual
meditations. At this time Osho said, "You may be watching
my gradual withdrawal from activities".
It is very considerately that I have become inaccessible. I was
very accessible, but then by and by I began to feel that I couldn't
help; it became almost impossible to help. For example, if I give
you one hour, you talk rubbish. If I give you one minute you say
exactly the thing that is needed—that's how mind functions.
If I am available to you the whole day, I am not available at
all. If you have to wait eight days or ten days, that waiting
is needed for a certain tuning in yourself; for certain significant
problems to arise.
Sometimes I see that if you have a problem and you can come immediately,
you will bring me trivia. During the day there are a thousand
and one problems arising—they are not significant, but in
the moment they appear significant. If you have to wait just one
hour, the problem changes—then you bring another problem.
If you are allowed to bring all your problems you will be in a
mess, because you yourself will not be able to know what is needed,
what is significant. So this is part of the whole process. wobble04
It is difficult to reach me, you will have to pass through Mukta
(who makes the appointments). By the time the appointment is given
and by the time you reach me, your problem will not be there.
Hence the appointment—because otherwise you will bring problems
unnecessarily. They drop automatically by themselves. And if they
persist, then they are worth bringing to me.
By the time you come to me you will have already passed over
it; and if you understand, that means that things that come and
go are not worth paying any attention to—they come and go.
You always remain, they come and go. You are the thing to be more
attentive about, not things that come and go—they are like
seasons, climate changes: in the morning it was different, in
the evening it is again different. It changes. Find out that which
doesn't change. flowrs03
This has been my observation: many times when I am talking to
somebody else I am talking to you, because I feel that is the
most appropriate way. When I am talking directly to you, you may
miss, because your ego becomes too prominent. When I pay attention
to you, your ego comes up to the surface, and the ego won't allow….
No, you are just sitting by the side, I am talking to somebody
else; then you are listening more properly. Then the ego is not
involved.
If I am telling somebody else how to drop anger, you are listening,
and because you are not concerned you are a little detached, and
when you are detached you listen better. When you are concerned,
when it is your problem, you are so worried about it that there
is a barrier. When I am talking to somebody else and talking on
his problem, I may not be talking to him at all, I may be talking
to somebody else really. And when I start talking to you I may
be talking now to the other person, not to you. That has to be
decided by the master: what to do, how to do it.
I had to stop personal interviews because of this, because I
felt it took a longer time for the thing to reach you. If you
are alone with me you become so nervous—and it is your problem,
you cannot be detached, you cannot be an observer. And you are
burdened so much by the problem that whatsoever I say, when I
am saying it you know well it is impossible, because you think
you have tried everything, and nothing happens.
I had to stop personal interviews completely. Now it is better:
ten, twelve people are there in the interview. I talk to a, and
I may be talking to b; I talk to c, and I may be hinting to a.
Now it is simple. When I hit somebody else, the hit may be for
you. And you can take it easily, because it seems not to be meant
for you. But it works. It finds you unaware. It penetrates deeper
in you. It moves into the subtle layers of your unconscious without
any effort because you are sitting relaxed. It is somebody else's
problem.
You may have observed that whenever somebody else is in difficulty
you can be a wise counselor, a good adviser—everybody is
a good adviser, I have never seen anybody who is not a good adviser
when others are in difficulty. Everybody is a good adviser. You
can give such wise counsel that even Lao Tzu will feel jealous.
Such a great wise man! But when the problem is yours, suddenly
you become childish. Suddenly you lose your bearings, you lose
balance.
Why does it happen?—because now it is too close a problem.
You are already disturbed and you are expecting a miracle. You
cannot give the same advice to yourself that you have given to
others in the same situation. A detached feeling helps. justlt08
When a master is near you, if you are frank, honest and true
and bring your mind out, the master will penetrate you from the
back door. From the front door your mind is going out; from the
back door the master is entering you.
So when near me on the lawn, be sincere and true. Don't bring
questions which are intellectual, they are useless. Metaphysics
is the most useless thing in the world. Don't bring any metaphysical
questions, they are not true; they don't belong to you. You may
have heard about them, read about them, but they are not part
of you. Bring your nonsense out, whatsoever it is. And don't try
to manipulate it. Don't try to rationalize it and polish it. Let
it be as raw as possible—because before a master, you must
be naked. You should not wear clothes and you should not hide
yourself.
That is an exposure, and if you can talk as an exposure—not
as an inquiry, just opening your heart, not asking for anything—then
silence will follow, because when you have exposed your mind and
you have passed through a catharsis, silence comes to you. This
is a different type of silence, not a forced silence, not a controlled
silence, not a silence with any effort on your part.
When you have exposed your mind completely, released all that
is there, a silence comes, descends on you, overwhelms you, a
silence which is beyond understanding, and a silence which is
beyond you; a silence which belongs to the whole and not to the
individual. clouds12
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