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Part X : 1987-1990 Poona-Two : Discourses: intimate and personal
Osho's discourses become more intimate and personal as friends
arrive from around the world to sit with him again
You are asking, "What is this longing to be close to You?"
Translated rightly, it is the longing to be close to yourself.
I am no more than a mirror. You see something of your originality
reflected, something of your beauty reflected, something that
you are missing, and missing very deeply. It is like a wound in
you. You want it to be healed, and you know if you come closer,
it will be healed. It is not knowledge gathered from books, it
is your intrinsic wisdom.
It is almost like: a moth finds it irresistible to go close
whenever it sees a beautiful flame, although it knows that by
going closer to the flame it will be consumed. But moths are not
skeptical, not doubting—they trust in their longing. Knowing
that their death is sure, they also know somewhere deep within
their consciousness that after death is resurrection. Nobody has
told them.
This longing to be close to me is the longing of a moth to be
close to the flame.
"To rest my head on Your feet"—this is something
very strange, of which the West is absolutely unaware. The East,
for thousands of years, has understood the longing; it is an energy
phenomenon.
The master is almost like a river that is coming down from the
hills, with all the coolness, with all the songs of the forest,
with all the beauty of the wild animals.
The East has understood it, that if you put your head on the
feet of the master, his energy will start flowing into you. It
can flow only from his feet.
Energy cannot go upwards. It follows exactly the same law as water:
it goes downwards….
"What is this longing to be close to you, to rest my head
on your feet, to dance so wildly that the Rolls Royce stops, to
play the guitar and sing so loudly, to look into and drown in
your eyes, to stop breathing when you move your hand? What is
this irresistable pull to be physically close to you?"
Just a natural longing of every disciple to be drowned in the
blissful energy, loving energy, in the ecstasy of the master.
And to be drowned in the ecstasy of the master, one wants to dance
madly so that the ego disappears and only dance remains—because
the ego cannot dissolve into the master, but the dance can dissolve.
To sing so loudly and so madly that the singer disappears; only
then the song can dissolve into the master.
And because you are not yet aware of the whole phenomenon, you
think it is "a pull to be physically close to You."
There you are not understanding your own longing clearly, only
very vaguely. It is not a question of physical closeness, it is
a question of spiritual closeness. But because you have known
yourself only as body, you are absolutely unaware of the treasures
of your soul.
The body is there today, tomorrow it may not be; but your soul
is going to be forever. The irresistable urge is to let your soul,
your consciousness, become one with the master. I have called
that state the state of a devotee.
The student is only intellectually interested; the disciple
comes closer—he is not only intellectually interested, it
is not only his curiosity to know more and more—the disciple
wants to be more and more. But there comes a limit, when the disciple
cannot resist the urge to be one with the master, to be one with
the beloved. This is a spiritual urge.
But everybody feels it first as if it is an urge to be physically
close. spirit26
When you look at someone as a master, your eyes radiate so much
love that the love people are accustomed to knowing is left far
behind. The ordinary, biological love becomes almost a contempt.
The moment you have known, and your eyes are filled with the love
for a master…. Falling in love with a beautiful body is
one thing; it is very superficial. Falling in love with a beautiful
being has an additional depth, immeasurable. zara119
When I am looking at you, it is not only that I am looking at
you; you are also looking at me. The abyss has its own ways of
gazing into you. The empty sky also gazes into you, the faraway
star also looks into you. And if the abyss is allowed to gaze
into you, soon you will find a great harmony between yourself
and the silence of the abyss, you will also become part of the
abyss. The abyss will be outside you and also inside you. golden05
I am as many as you are; my heart is beating in you. Without
you I don't have any purpose to be here. Just a thin thread of
love is keeping me amongst you. It all depends on you—as
you grow more, I am more….
Your hands are my hands, and your eyes are my eyes, and only if
this happens, you rise from disciplehood to the status of a devotee.
So your feeling is perfectly correct. I am talking to you just
to keep you engaged so that I can work in other ways on you, on
your heart.
It is spiritual surgery. Unless you are silent, quiet, calm, just
absorbed in listening to me, I cannot do the subtle work. My speaking
is nothing but anesthesia. razor24
I rarely promise—but if you are absolutely certain that
you will go on digging deeper and deeper to the very ultimate
center of your being, I promise you I will be there to welcome
you. Because the center is one…we are different only on
the periphery.
Just think of a circle and a center: from the center towards
the circle many lines can go. On the periphery those lines are
very distant; as they move towards the center they come closer,
and closer, and closer, and closer. And those who have reached
the center are all ready to welcome you.
Not only will I be there, you will also find all those people
whom I have been talking about. Just reach to the center, so I
can introduce you to Chuang Tzu, to Lao Tzu, to Kabir, to Gautam
Buddha, to Eknath, to Hotei, to Tilopa, Naropa…unique people;
every one a unique flower, with a fragrance of his own.
And it is not only a promise to you (the questioner), it is
a promise to you all: the day you reach the center, you will find
me there ahead of you. I am already there, just waiting for you.
Don't get lost on the way: reach to the very end. spirit09
These sannyasins have taken a tremendous step. They have risked
their established mind to enquire into the unfamiliar and the
unknown—and ultimately, the unknowable. They have put aside
all their explanations in favor of the miracle and the mystery
of existence. They have dropped their ambitions, their desires
for money, power, prestige, respectability. Now their whole concern
is simple and single: how to know, Who am I?…
These people have taken a courageous stand against the whole world.
It is not ordinary, it is absolutely extraordinary. To stand alone
like a lion, and not to be a sheep in the crowd, is the greatest
courage in existence. Very few people are able to get out of the
mass psychology, of the collective mind. The collective mind gives
a certain sense of false security. Naturally it gives you the
idea that so many people—there are five billion people on
the planet—cannot be wrong. Naturally there is no need for
you to search for the truth individually. All these people have
discovered it; it is easier and cheaper just to follow them…just
to be a Christian, or a Hindu, or a Mohammedan, or a communist.
It is very easy when a crowd surrounds you to feel warm and cozy.
Standing alone like a tall Lebanon cedar, utterly alone in the
sky, far away from the earth, almost reaching to the stars…But
the beauty of the cedars of Lebanon—their courage to go
beyond the crowd, their courage to be alone…
Gautam Buddha used to call sannyas a lion's roar. So whenever
I am in a gap, if you are in tune with me, you are in a gap. Then
you will become aware that you are surrounded by a strange crowd.
It is not the ordinary crowd of the marketplace—these are
seekers, these are enquirers. These are people who are ready to
sacrifice everything for the truth. These are the people who have
renounced all borrowed knowledge and are in search of something
of their own, because that which is not yours, is not right. It
may have been right for Gautam Buddha, it may have been right
for Jesus Christ, but it is not right for you.
You are a unique individual in your own right.
You have to find the truth alone, not by following somebody else's
footsteps. The world of truth is something like the sky where
birds fly but don't leave any footprints. The world of truth also
has no footprints of Jesus or Gautam Buddha or Lao Tzu. It is
the world of consciousness: where can you leave the footprints?
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